So I'm sitting in Chicago O'Hare airport waiting on a 3 hour layover that I thought was 30 minutes. The past week has been a whirlwind of stuff. I thought I was going to have more time to update this with what was going on and how I'm dealing and all that, but after breaking the screen on my phone due to an unfortunate butter fingers incident, I've had to download the blogger app again and only just now remembered how to link this account to it.
So this past week has been filled with running errands to prepare me for this journey, saying goodbye to friends and family in Michigan, going to a Detroit Tigers game, drinking a lot, cursing myself and my decision, getting excited then nervous then excited all within like 10 seconds. I've also gotten sunburn, twice.
Its been a bit of a roller-coaster emotionally. Part of me thinks this could be the worst idea I've ever had, the other part thinks it may be the best. Only time will tell.
So here I am, sitting at an outlet station in O'Hare, charging my Zune since I apparently forgot last night, thinking about Chicago. Thinking about tamales, cider, my friends, my bar, old jobs, old apartments, people that I used to know, a whole history of a life stretches out along the horizon just past the other terminals and runways, a history I'm continuing to walk away from without really looking back.
I'm thinking about the odds I would see someone I know here in this mosh-pit of arrival and departure. They're pretty slim.
I'm still not sure I'm ready for this... I guess its too late to turn back now... I keep trying to think about dune.
Yes, I'm about to geek out a little and make a nerdy sci-fi reference.
There is a line from Dune that I love, "I shall not fear, fear is the mind killer. It is the little death that brings total obliteration." Then something about letting the fear pass through you and turning the minds eye to its path. When the fear finishes nothing remains only I.
So I don't remember it exactly but close enough... either way, I shall not fear.
So this past week has been filled with running errands to prepare me for this journey, saying goodbye to friends and family in Michigan, going to a Detroit Tigers game, drinking a lot, cursing myself and my decision, getting excited then nervous then excited all within like 10 seconds. I've also gotten sunburn, twice.
Its been a bit of a roller-coaster emotionally. Part of me thinks this could be the worst idea I've ever had, the other part thinks it may be the best. Only time will tell.
So here I am, sitting at an outlet station in O'Hare, charging my Zune since I apparently forgot last night, thinking about Chicago. Thinking about tamales, cider, my friends, my bar, old jobs, old apartments, people that I used to know, a whole history of a life stretches out along the horizon just past the other terminals and runways, a history I'm continuing to walk away from without really looking back.
I'm thinking about the odds I would see someone I know here in this mosh-pit of arrival and departure. They're pretty slim.
I'm still not sure I'm ready for this... I guess its too late to turn back now... I keep trying to think about dune.
Yes, I'm about to geek out a little and make a nerdy sci-fi reference.
There is a line from Dune that I love, "I shall not fear, fear is the mind killer. It is the little death that brings total obliteration." Then something about letting the fear pass through you and turning the minds eye to its path. When the fear finishes nothing remains only I.
So I don't remember it exactly but close enough... either way, I shall not fear.
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