so it begins... again

I started writing again. I started like actually writing. The past few weeks have consisted of me staring at blank notebook pages or scary white empty word documents trying to find the words to use to say anything. It was inspired by the lit mag that published a piece of mine recently (criminal class press www.criminalclasspress.com/ - shameless self promotion) having a reading this past Sunday night. I was asked by my friend who is also one of the editors to read at this event. The only catch was he didn't want me to read what they published, he wanted something different.
The problem then was the fact that I haven't written anything since last December (over a year ago) other than random stuff here in blog land and orders at work.
I struggled with what to write, what to write about and even how to write for roughly 2 weeks before a stupid conversation with the I guess ex-boyfriend (I hate saying that) inspired me somehow to write a story.

I haven't written fiction in forever. Yes I have a degree in fiction writing and yes I am well versed at it but for the past few years I've lost my love for fiction. I started focusing more on creative non fiction and the art of the personal essay. So imagine my surprise when not only was I inspired by the guy who is no longer my boyfriend but I was inspired to write a fictional story!

I am using the title of my blog (sort of) as the title of the story and it is about a girl who loses everything and decides to move to Mexico to teach english. unfortunately she falls victim to some of the senseless crime that happens there and gets caught up with drug cartels and all that fun stuff. I only have a little of the story written and after reading it outloud on Sunday at the aforementioned reading and getting no response (litterally afterwords one would assume that I hadn't read at all since no one had anything to say to me about anything, it's possible I have a superpower I wasn't aware of and can turn invisible at a moments notice) I'm not sure how I feel about this story. But I will continue to write it and possibly post some of it here in ye olde blog.